The Mead Family: Chapter Five: Confessions

One day around 9 in the morning, I was feeling lonely and decided to look through my phone list and call someone to come over to visit. I hoped that at least one of my friends or maybe my mom or sister would like to come over and visit me.

I looked through my phone and at my text messages, trying to remember who I had talked to recently, but the list was short, Mom, Sis, Natasha, Dad, Brother...

It was kinda pathetic how lousy my connection with people in my life was. I wanted more friends, but I was too shy to approach people in public and I tended to stay away from the limelight. I wanted to fit in so bad that I ended up further back than before. Overall, I guess, I just got over it, however, secretly hoped to make a friend at some point.

I called Natasha, my old high school friend, hoping that she would like to come over or maybe go out for lunch and catch up. We kept in contact every so often, but it wasn't as often as I had liked. When I called her, it went straight to voicemail...

I called my mom next and the phone began to ring. I got really excited that it actually was ringing this time.

"Hello?" my mom said.

"Hey mom, it's Veronica. I was wondering if you'd like to come over for a visit!" I said excitedly.

"Oh hey, sure darling, I'll come over at 11, okay?" she replied.

"SURE! I will be here! See ya then!" I said with a smile.

"Bye, see you then. Love you," she said with happiness in her voice.

"Love you too mom!" I replied.

As I waited for my mom to come by, I decided I should get some breakfast.

I was feeling mildly queasy from time to time, so I tried to keep my diet to just low calorie foods and light filling soups. I thought I must have had a slight flu bug or maybe a virus or something. I didn't really think much of it at the time.

By the time I had finished sitting down for a meal and cleaning up, I heard a knock at the door. It had to be mom!

Lo and behold, it was my mom! I was thrilled that she actually came over! It had been months since I saw her. She had been so busy with her new job as an artist for the local magazine that she hasn't had much free time, but I was able to catch her on her day off!

"Veronica! I missed you so much! I'm glad I was able to come over today!" she said as she hugged me tightly.

"Mom I have missed you too! So much has happened lately... I really need to talk to you though," I said anxiously. The mood of the happy reunion changed suddenly. I didn't want it to turn out this way so quickly, but I really needed to talk to my mom about what had happened.

"What's wrong, Erin?" my mom sighed as she stared deeply into my eyes with concern.

"I got robbed not long ago, I guess about two months ago. I'm fine, but they never did find the man who did it," I replied.

My mom's face went from concerned to sad within moments of what I said. She was scared for me, I could see it in her eyes.

"Are you okay? Like he didn't do something else, did he? Please tell me if he did," she begged me to tell her.

"Mom, don't worry... I'm fine! I promise!" I lied.

"I swear, if something like that happens again, you will be the first to know, I was scared before and didn't want to upset you. I mean it did happen right after I moved in. BUT it hasn't happened since and nothing is going to happen to me," I comforted my mom.

"Hunny, if you EVER need anything you can tell me! Remember that okay?" she said to me with her deep orange-red eyes.

"I know mom, I will," I said as I tried to reassure her I was fine.

"Now, is there anything else you need to tell me? I know you are hiding something. I am your mother, you know!" she said.

"Um, there might be, but I don't know," I hesitated.

"Honey, you can tell me anything! I know we haven't really been close since you graduated high school, but you are a young lady and you are still my baby girl! I am here for you whenever and whatever the circumstances be! Okay?" she said as she tried to reassure me.

"I love you, Veronica! You know, I was just like you at your age! I wanted to marry Pay and get away from my mom right after I graduated high school. I didn't think for a second. I also left my younger sisters and brother at home with my mom and moved away. So I do understand how you are feeling about all this. But I know there is something much deeper going on with you and I'm here to listen," she stated.

"Well, I like this guy, but he can't be with me right now and then there was this other guy before who was just there for a short time and he hurt me badly," I said with as straight a face as I could make. I knew I was lying to my mom, but I couldn't tell her I was taken advantage by that robber. It hurt too much to talk about.

My mom grew more concerned as I talked about my problems to her. She tried to keep a straight face, but her face was dripping with emotion. I could feel her wanting to comfort me and protect me. She just wanted her little girl to never have to see that pain again, however, she knew I had to face this myself as a grown woman.

"Oh darling, I am so sorry! You have had it so rough with guys right off the bat! But, don't worry, I am sure that the guy who hurt you will learn to regret his mistake and the one who can't be with you right now, I hope he sees how wonderful you are!" she said as she put her hand on my shoulder.

"Mom, is it weird for a guy to keep his distance and to say he will tell me all about himself when it's the right time?" I asked.

"No way, it's not weird. In fact, that's normal. I know I brought your father to life from a doll, but he is just as much a man as any other. Actually, he had thoughts many times of not being my girlfriend and being my friend instead, but I wanted to badly to marry him. I didn't want to deal with having a dating relationship or having other boyfriends. I guess you could say it was the easy way out. Me and your father get along just fine and we love each other, but we could be closer...," she explained.

"Do you think you and dad will stay together forever?" I asked.

"It's most likely, but sometimes I wish we had spent more time together as a couple, before we had kids, before we got a house. But after your grandfather died, everything changed. Mom wasn't the same and we had to grow up pretty fast. Your dad is my true love and we are going to stay by each other's side one way or another," she said.

"Just promise me one thing," my mom said with a frown.

"What is it mom?" I asked with a concerned face.

"If you find that one you know is for you, stay with him, take it slow, don't let the relationship turn into a stale, but comfortable life. I don't wanta see you suffer or regret anything. I know it might happen, but at least you'd be in a better position that way," she replied.

"I promise mom, I will build a relationship the way it feels right, but the right way," I smiled.